Tuesday, January 19, 2010

One Step at a Time

Okay, so if you're wondering what the heck this image has to do with the title, the theme here is life.  It has multiple stages.  It needs joy and music.  It needs love.  It's made up of little moments.  Do you see where I am going with this?   Maybe?

Life is short, or that's what everyone says.  But, sometimes it seems as if life just trickles along.  For me, it has always been that the things I want to happen seem to take forever to come and the things that are happening now, even those which I am glad for, flash by so quickly.

Time is very frustrating because it doesn't ever seem to be on my side.  As soon as I get settled in a given place, the time comes for me to move on.  Maybe this is a trouble that is exclusive to me.  Maybe I just have more trouble adjusting than most people.  Regardless, this little conundrum has caused me a good bit of frustration.

My mood right now is not frustrated, rather it is pensive.  I frequent that particular mood quite a lot. 

I'm thinking a good bit about big things.  I'm thinking about time(obviously), change, fear, ethics, wisdom, love, patience, self-knowledge, God, emotions, responsibility, prudence, and many other things.  I'm trying to grow.  I want this to be a growing year for me.

I want to know myself better.  I want to love God better.  I want to have more self discipline.  I want to be a better friend.  I want to start sticking up for myself.  I want to be kinder.  I want to be tough(but a very specific kind of tough).  I want to be wise.  I want to trust others and God much much more.

This is the year, folks.  This is the month.  This is the week.  This is the day.  This is the moment. 

The change starts now.  Today, I am going to be successful.  I will not be stopped by myself or anyone else.  I am determined to be the best that I can be.  I am determined to learn that my best is good enough, even when others disagree.  I don't want to rely so much on my feelings any more.

I want to be sure that it is truly the God of Consolations that I love and not the consolations of God.

And for this moment, I will succeed! 

1 comment:

Susie said...

Good luck, girl. You'll do all that and more, I'm sure. :]