Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Confusion
Some days, I really doubt myself. I can't see what is ahead and I become suddenly very afraid that I am doing something, or many things, wrong. What if I cannot get it right? What if I get hurt? What if I am annoying everyone? What if people are getting sick of me being so emotional and vulnerable all of the time? What if I can never change that? I have fought long and hard against these doubts and thrown myself at the foot of the cross for protection from them, but some days my resistance is just too low. What then should I do? I know that this will soon pass and I will go on with my life as normal, but right now there is a nagging thought that I am just not good enough. For tonight, I feel very alone, even though I know that feelings really aren't that important. I ask that anyone who reads this blog would please say a quick prayer for me tonight. Thanks. (BTW, I am completely serious in saying that I really am one hundred percent fine. I'm just a bit down this evening and when you mix that with my flair for drama, the result is this startling blog entry)
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4 comments:
Ok, will do. I have been there before and understand.
you doubts are normal..we all have them..dont what if everything..it is useless..focus on the things you do have..free will to make changes in your life..proactivity..you will be ok!
Hang in there, I feel this way a lot also. Just remember, there is always light at the end of the tunnel. If God sends us on rough, bumpy roads, he is trying to teach us something and he will provide strong shoes for us to wear. I am praying for you and please know that you are not alone. If you need someone to listen to you or talk to you, I will be hear for you. I know we don't know each other, but we are both children of God and he wants us to watch out and take care of each other. I hardly ever look at any blogs, and had even signed off and turned my computer off and something inspired me to turn it back on and blog surf and your's was the first one that came up, and I can't help but think that God must want you to know that you are alone! A friend from Oklahoma City who is here for you!
I hope you received my note to you and I am praying for you!
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