When I was a little girl I used to listen to children's praise music on a cassette entitled "Hi God!" and on it was this song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9BZ6NpqjvMA&feature=related (Granted this version is a bit different then the one I grew up on - it's certainly faster ^_^) Lately, I've been thinking a lot about the metaphorical garden of my life. I have so many different kinds of flowers in the garden and they are all amazingly beautiful.
Many of them will be moving away after this year and that's been on my heart lately. What does it mean for my friendships with everyone if life is drawing them in a new direction. As I watch them, one by one, discover where they want to go and who they want to be, I feel as if I'm being left behind. Not because they are going, I am confident that our friendships will last for a long time, even if they change with time. I feel as if I lack the clarity that they possess about the future. Where do I fit in this great big world? What am I meant to do? I can't stay hear forever and with each friend discovering more about his or her life path, I am increasingly being made aware of that fact. I wish that I was more wise.
Still, in spite of all my fears, I'm happy for my beautiful friends and all the great adventures that lie ahead for them. Incidentally that makes me think of another song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U-_r1Npsv5I (The movie that this song is from is irrelevant to this post.) Well, onward toward adventure, I guess. ^_^